Burn out

I know that toddlers/preschoolers always demand attention, 25 hours a day, so I was warned. It is trued indeed, I have not had 5 minutes to myself today except when she was having a nap.

When I sat down after dinner and try to unwind by watching some tv, she sat next to me and pretend to read her book. Loudly.

When I had shower she came several times which during the period of that 15 minutes she would open & close the door letting the cold air into the bathroom.

I then tried to read some news on the net since she seemed settled down with her colourings, then she came up and start to asking me about silly things.

I'm still trying to pretend to ignore and suppress my annoyance when she then announced to me that she's still hungry and wanted to have some peanut butter sandwich. She's just had dinner!

I told her to get lost.

I'm not proud of it but I just did it. I just lost it. I'm so buggered, and I tried make effort earlier this afternoon by taking her to the park but it didn't seem to wear her off just one bit.

Sometimes I wonder if I'd manage having two, though it's a bit too late to change my mind. I think I should finish work earlier than I'd planned so that I won't burn out to bits by the time I reach the end of the next 3 months. I think for the sakes of everyone's sanity I really should finish up early.